Procrastination

Some days you just scratch your head and wonder why or what is next. The last few days I have had a bad bought of the procrastination bug. I just feel there is so much to be done and I just don't know where to start. I always feel that writing helps me get to where I need to go and making it public holds me accountable. So here you have it.

The last post, I stated that I wanted to stay in the fitness industry which hasn't changed. It looks like we will be keeping our Curves locations for a little longer as we are kinda stuck in our leases. This will give me the opportunity to stay in the fitness realm. I am going in March to become certified to teach Zumba, which I am looking forward to. I am also studying for my personal trainer certification which I am hoping to take in April. These will be great to have in my pocket. There are some other areas of fitness that I can explore but I need to tell myself, one at a time.

I have been feeling very stressed about things the last few days and I keep reminding myself that I need to give it to God. It is much easier said than done. Things tend to work itself out in the end but I am not seeing the light. I am going to have to pray more about it and keep that faith a-going! I think that is part of the procrastination. I have ideas but I just need that little bit of forward momentum.

As you might know, we are going to be adopting a little girl who is due in about 9 days from now! We are certainly excited but we are a little cautious from what happened last time. To keep up with my writing, I have decided to write her a poem everyday for her first year. That will be 365 new pieces that I can share with her. It is a big task but I think it will be something special for her. I will share that blog with you when I get to have my first post.

As for writing, our bible study group gave me a good idea about something. I can't share it yet but it could be a great idea.

Until next time, keep smiling!

Make a difference

People are always talking about something happening, good or bad, for a reason though most of the time we never know what that reason is. I know many things have occurred in my life and I never know why though I know it is the right thing without a doubt.
I have always had an uncanny ability to know what is probably going to happen in the future. It is hard to explain and it isn't that I see a clear picture, it is more of a gut feeling. Sometimes I welcome those feelings and other times I try to ignore them and hope that it is just me being overly cautious. Looking back at these times, I have come to the realization that God is leading me down a path and those feelings are His way of directing me down a path.
Pastor Rick said that when there are challenging times your life, it is during those hours that defines who we are as a person. Some people will let the world happen to them while others take this opportunity to make something happen in the world. It is up to us to really look deep inside and see what lesson we are learning in hard situations and think of how we can use them to our advantage. Who might be going through the same thing and just need an encouraging word to give them a boost? How do I make sure this won't happen again?
Everyday is a learning lesson and each day we get stronger. Sometimes people know what they are to become in life and others it takes awhile. They are decent at doing a few things but just have a hard time finding their passion.
I had a moment this past week at work. I thought that I was just "getting by" with my business and just waiting for the next thing. One of my members at the gym came to celebrate her one year of being a member and asked me to do her monthly weigh and measure. After we were done, and we looked at how incredibly well she had done a little light went on in my head. Actually it was more of a flood light. Seeing the sheer joy and happiness that my member was experiencing and her thanking me for being there for support filled me with such an overwhelming feeling of contentment. I always knew that God wanted me to help people and Him putting Curves into my life has given me that opportunity. It has lit a fire that I didn't know was there. I am now eager to get certified in as many aspects of fitness and open a new gym that helps men, women and children. My gut feeling is that God wants me to travel down this path. I am not sure how I am going to get it done and I am scared about the money aspect but that is when we need to look to God and trust that He has a plan. I am letting Him into those rooms of my life and releasing my fears. There is a plan and there are people that need my help and I want to make a difference.....I will make a difference.

A new year means new hope



The start of 2011 has a different feel than any other in the past. Maybe because we know that this year will being the most significant changes to our lives. We know that we will probably start our family this year through adoption which will be a miracle in itself after so many years of trying. Also finding direction that my life is supposed to follow will be set this year. For so many years, I have been bumping along doing what I need to get by and the interest of many things have caught my eye. We have had some great church services that the message is setting up the next few years.

Everyone has a destiny and a reason that they are here. We have mission to accomplish and if we let the world go by, how many other people are missing out because we dropped the ball on our part. I have always felt drawn to helping people in need and making an impact. I will prayerfully seek out my future and make sure that I don't miss out on my destiny. There are goals to be reached and I will get there.

While at church this past weekend, Pastor Rick said that he had a year that he was completely depressed and it took everything he has just to get through the day. He persevered and what he has accomplished in his life is truly amazing. He had a vision and with a lot of faith and determination, he has grown a church that has helped millions of people. Saddleback has not reached every nation in the world to spread the word of God and help others who are in dire need. What would have happened if he just wallowed in is depression and gave up on his destiny? How many people would still be in dire straights and not have any glimmer of hope. What if God is leading me to do something and I don't follow through?

So with hope and a prayer, I am taking this year and making it the best year yet. I am going to take the visions I have and not be scared of how big they are and take baby steps to achieve them. There will be a way and I know that I am meant to do big things.

Bring it on......